Rainy day in Tsukuba…and I have to be in heels … Sigh

Ushering in the new year….a new life

Happy New Year!
Again, I am tempted to make another set of resolutions that I know, deep in my heart, I cannot do.  The mere act of classifying them into resolutions seemed to make them unattainable.

Now then, since I will not be making the old resolutions, I will list down my keywords for this year.

1. Focus
2. Oblivious
3. Deep
4. Care/Love
5. Natural

I hope to give a different meaning to each word every month…

Bloody morning..

Woke up still wondering what to say when I meet the OB this morning. Although I made the reservation weeks ago for another “ailment”, I have already gone to a specialist for it (went negative) and did not cancel the reservation for today (different hospital).

Anyway, I went to the hospital and it was a breeze, the staff were really very nice to me and the doctor turned out to be a very kind and good looking man in his mid 40′s. He advised a blood test to check my hormones and since I want a female doctor to do the pap smear, it will have to wait for until 2 weeks from now, when the doctor will be available.

Anyway,  I went to the med tech area to have my blood drawn and to my surprise, the patient no. that was being “served” was 112 and my number was 176…..hmmn, waiting ..waiting…it took 30 mins (that fast)! I was thinking how much blood is drawn in this hospital for a day…assuming they take 5 mL per person, and assuming there will be 100 patients…it will be half a liter already. Multiply it by 10 days….you have 5 liters of blood! I wonder how they get rid of the remaining blood….?

 

Life without fb…let me try again

So how does one go back to his/her life pre-fb? This is the second time for me to deactivate my account but this time, I really intend to not reactivate for a long time.  Although I have to check on my high school fb group, I will find other means to get in touch with my classmates…. maybe I can just send e-mail..?

What is my motivation this time? Will it be a good one? I have finally lost interest in the fb life and I think I have to sort out many things in my own life that  I do not want to share to my more than a hundred so-called fb friends…especially when more than half of these friends are actually just acquaintances. It’s actually a pity especially now when I have cool fb groups…I actually thought of trimming down the list of my fb friends but I think it is a very daunting task…not to mention that I could probably be just suffering from depression and end up “unfriend-ing” 90% of the list.

So how should I cope?
I intend to focus more on accomplishing more, work-wise, and to improve my culinary skills to blow my families minds away. I want to save enough cash so that I can invest it in business that will give me financial security.

I have this idea of going back to the pre-friendster and pre-fb life. I intend to put more distance between me and those that I do not trust or like. I intend to live my life without the social networking traps ^_^

Day 2 without fb

Whew! That was close. Didn’t reactivate but was tempted to look at someone else’s account hehehe.

Life withou fb Part 2

So how do I fight the urge to log on and check what my friends are up to?
1. Write my blog
2. Clean the room
3. Write a report
4. Watch tv

So why not just ignore it and not log in….? Because I will still be receiving notifications…. And I will be too weak to fight the urge to check out what’s happening with the rest of the world… I would like to ask this question to myself… What were the things that I do pre- fb? Let me go back to those things and be productive.

There’s hope for me……

Life without fb

It’s been 3 hours since I have deactivated my fb account and I wonder how long it will take before I will give in and reactivate it

I give myself 7 days of life without fb and let’s see if I have enough self-control to last me a week.

Burnout!

“Burnout” (Def.) fatigue, frsutration, or apathy resulting from prolonged stress, overwork, or intense activity (Dictionary.com).

Been trying to release how I feel …lately on how I have lost my passion for what I used to love doing. I do not know if this, again, is the point where I (plus fam) should move on to the next “adventure”… I sincerely hope that even if I have to move on and decide on what to do next, that I will still be productive….I have been working on one thing for three months already…I cannot focus, I do not simply have the desire to finish it…. =(

When does one know exactly when to move on….? Did I miss the “bus” to the next stop?

I wish that I will see the hand of God and that I will heed His call….”Myra..next stop is……!”.

Control

“My friend, the panda will never fulfill his destiny, nor you yours until you let go of the illusion of control.” – Master Oogway

If I can turn back time, there are many things that I want to change…however, since it is an improbability, I would rather be happy and not cry over spilled milk or linger on memories of actions that I should not have done in the first place.

Happiness is elusive only if I let it slip through my fingers…I choose to be happy and therefore I should not waste time on whatcouldhavebeens. But if in the future, there is a chance to amend the wrongdoings, then may God grant me the strength to do the right thing and “extend a hand” or say “hello”….Another thing is for me to stop thinking about how other people will think about my decisions but rather think of how I cannot offend others through my words and actions.

Life is short… choose to be happy.